Crumbling around Texas :)

Being in 100 degree heat what did I decide to do? 

Duh, bake a berry crumble and heat up the house! 

Well, it turned out amazing and actually didn't make the house very hot at all.

I used frozen berries, normally I would use fresh but we didn't have any.

I squeezed fresh lemon juice over the berries, and coated them lightly with flour and sugar. 

the topping consists of butter, oatmeal, brown sugar, cinnamon & a little flour to make it crumbly. 

It is probably the easiest yummy treat ever :) 

Moving on, I'm so proud of myself for sticking to dressing cute one more day ;)

Do I sometimes think I'm a fashion model?

Quite possibly :)

I had a very interesting last couple days in the life of getting divorced... I will spare you the details but apparently everyone and their mother knows I'm seeing someone. 

I will say it wasn't a big secret, but I like to think I'm a semi private person...

(As I type this on a blog... ? Huh?)

Anyway, I'm sure that it was one of those "I know it but I'm not going to say it out loud" sort of things, but now clearly people are knowing about this! 

Pretty funny story actually, my beautiful little 2 year old has been telling everyone about "mommy's boyfriend" for quite some time now, but I think this one tops everything.

My ex's mom drove me to the airport last week (I'm visiting my mom in Texas) and she pulled in and came to grab my suitcase while I got my baby, and the first thing out of that tiny little mouth were "Grandma! Grandma, my mom's boyfriend bought her that suitcase! That's the one my mom's boyfriend bought her!" 

Thanks Olivia. 

If there was any doubt that they didn't REALLY know, it's gone now. 

Clearly, I am the bad guy now since he's not dating until our divorce is final... or so he claims. 

But, I guess someone has to be the villain in divorces, why should it not be me? 

I bet I would look pretty cute in a villain costume, and I would get some killer black boots for it.

This bad guy role doesn't seem so bad with the prospect of new boots.... I'm thinking a bit like cat woman but with no mask or tail.

I joke, but I do miss being married. I don't miss being in the kind of marriage I was in (an unhappy one for both of us), but I so love being a wife. I mean, yes, dating someone and being in a relationship with them is fun but it doesn't compare to being married. 

I miss coming home to someone and the feeling of knowing someone is waiting there for you... I miss little things and simple joys like making someone's favorite meal just to make them smile, or kissing someone goodbye in the morning while their sleeping. Making someone's lunch for them as a surprise...

I miss all the little things that contribute to the normalcy and comfort of a marriage, even if I wasn't in a happy one I still had that sense of normalcy which I am lacking now. 

I guess you have to form that comfort and sort of day to day with someone knew, but doing it all over again is pretty scary since you don't know how that other person is going to react.

Good thing I have 2 crazy little girls to distract me from all this or I would go crazy in my own head :)

Getting started!

DayOne. 

First maxi dress, I'm very impressed with them I must say. 

Dress- Old Navy

Belt- Ross

DayTwo.

Cowgirl up, love these boots! 

Tank- Target

Shorts- Ross

Boots-Ross

Failure to commit

Clearly, I have a hard time keeping up on this blog... so I think it's time that I kick myself into gear and do it.


I have decided being newly almost divorced, I set a few goals for myself....


Goal #1 to be cute!
That sounds silly, because everyone knows I am cute (duh!), but it's so easy for me to get caught up in being a mom and working all the time that I forget about myself. So my goal is to do my hair and makeup every day, and on the days that I'm not working, I HAVE to dress cute. Not only that, lets see how thrifty I can be.. you all know I'm a bargain shopper ;)  I think this is going to be harder than it sounds.

Good thing I have a best friend who loves to dress me....

So here goes, I will be posting outfits just to prove to myself that I will be doing it. Also, I love all these fashion blogs that people have going on these days, I guess I'll have to join in on the cool thing to do!

Goal #2
Start cooking again! I keep doing "quickies" ... and I'm not a fan of it.

Goal #3
Work out 4 times/week
I am a slacker, and I keep eating dessert!!

Goal #3
Keep up this damn blog!! :)

Success!!

This is my amazing healthy lasagna that I am super proud of!

Crossed wires ?

Can someone please explain why men have the ability to get us pregnant, and then are wired completely different when it actually comes to the kids?!? I feel like since we've had our second me and Alex are on completely seperate pages for taking care of them.
I have morphed into this calm, chill mom that doesn't mind if Olivia is being loud or dumping a bucket of toys out, because in my mind it's not HURTING the baby and I'll just help her clean up when she's done. He's turned into this person that freaks out when the baby is crying and always wants Olivia to be quiet around the baby.
I don't know at what point all that changed, but I feel like I'm constantly looking around like the house is crazy whenever we're all in it together lol.

Yesterday was fairly good day, hubby got home from work super early so we got some stuff down around the house. Then I made a pretty nasty pork thing in the crockpot that I thought was going to be one of those I just threw some stuff in and magically out popped this amazing dinner things... it actually turned out quite the opposite. I'm glad nobody was super hungry and we had leftovers to eat, because it went straight in the garbage. An accomplishment though, was that I made like 8 breakfast burritos so we could have breakfast all week. I think that's what I'm going to start doing from now on instead of buying frozen lean pockets. Sundays I'm going to get all the breakfasts made for the week. Surprisingly as soon as I had the assembly line going it went pretty fast, and turned out good. I even used whole wheat tortillas, which hubby wasn't a giant fan of but whatever. He could stand to eliminate some white products from his diet.

Today I'm making italian chicken in the crockpot, super easy 4 ingredient dinner. It's not very healthy seeing as it has cream cheese AND cream of chicken soup, but it's super easy and quite frankly I allow myself some cheat days on the healthy front for some yummy creamy goodness!
SO for those of you that want to cheat and have something yummy, this is the crock pot chicken I'm making.
1 can cream of chicken (you should do non fat and lowest sodium anyway)
1 8 oz pckg cream cheese (fat free!)
4-6 chicken breasts (you can do frozen or thawed)
1 packet zesty italian dressing mix (dried- it's not in the seasonings, it's by the salad dressing hidden. I looked forever because the packet is so small!)

Throw it all in the crock pot and leave on low for 6 hours if the chicken is thawed, high if it's frozen. If you going to be home I'd turn it on low for the last 2 hours if using frozen, but if not they should be fine anyway.
Make some rice when you are ready to eat (brown rice of course, or wild rice whole grain if you want to go all out like I am ;)
I'll post pictures tonight of how it turns out.
I got the menu done for next week yesterday too, so here's that in case your interested!
S: Crockpot Lasagna
M: Clam chowder
T:Taco bites
W:lemon shrimp pasta
T: chicken pockets
F: Quesadillas (either steak or chicken)
S: Grilled cheese & tomato soup

Don't feel like you have to stick to your menu! Change the days according to how life works for you. I garuntee already that one of those nights is going to be taken off because we'll eat over at the in laws, and another one because I am too tired to make it or get it ready in the crock pot in the morning.
I don't feel bad, I think it took a lot of effort to just plan it all out, getting it done is an entirely different story!

One of those days...

Boy am I glad my day is done with! It was a crazy, messed up confusing sort of day, not one I really enjoyed. I was running late again this morning, which evidently I'm just going to have to get used to with 2 kids and working, but I really don't want to. On top of that I didn't sleep, and then when I got to work I had a protester/police fiasco happen for about an hour and a half. UGH.

Do you know how hard it is to try and get someone to join a gym when there are 2 police cars directly outside the door trying to get people to leave who are handing out flyers saying how horrible our gym is?? (Oh and did I mention that whatever it is they thought we did to them, wasn't even anything to do with OUR franchise or gym, just another one with the same name? They just thought we were a good place to mess up business I guess.) Not only that, everyone is going crazy in the club because they think cars are getting broken into.
Too much to handle.

But, right after that I did get to eat a really yummy pesto grilled cheese I brought for lunch :) SO that was great!
I think I'm going to start working out again! I don't want to lose weight, I actually wouldn't mind gaining a few pounds, but I want to have muscle back. What with the tummy stretching out super far and the booty growing I seem to have lost what little muscle I had back in the day..
OH! On a happy note, I thought I had lost my ID for the past week and hadn't had time to replace it *which was going to be a big ordeal* but I found it in my wallet tonight behind some gift cards! :) That makes life much better.

I didn't hear anything funny with kids today, so I don't know what to end our night with. OH! I'm super good at finding good deals, and I raided the Safeway clearance tonight! I found whole wheat bags of pasta on clearance for a buck something, whole wheat organic lasagna noodles for a buck something (I got 3 boxes I can never find those!) Salmon for 3 bucks, holiday creamer for a buck something, and hot buttered rum mix (which I will drink alcoholic or not) for another buck something! :) I was really excited because I will get down with some yummy tasting buttered rum, I got 2. It's like the perfect cold windy night drink. Also, I found super cool character bath gift sets for my giving tree stash for next year. For those who don't know, I'm getting clearance toys and such all year and saving them for the giving trees and donations for Christmas since we never have money around Christmas to buy them. So those were only 2 bucks at Target so I got like 5. Can't beat 5 presents for 10 bucks!
:) It makes me happy to put my red tag addiction to good use!
Okay, I'm feeding the itty bitty then going to bed! I'm off tomorrow so stay tuned for some crock pot lasagna and my story on how I do tomorrow, I'm doing hot yoga for the first time! Should be interesting (and probably embarrassing!)

Exhaustion sets in...

Sorry guys I'm already a slacker, I didn't write for yesterday. Honestly I was so tired that I zonked out before 10 which is very abnormal for me. After 2 days of work with horrible sleep I was like the walking dead, my husband actually didn't understand me when I talked to him. Pretty sad, I know. It wasn't anything special to talk about yesterday, I worked, was super tired, then slept. I can't say it was an eventful day.

Today was one of those crazy hectic days where nothing goes right.
I was running late, and then right when I was getting to leave I start bleeding again (I thought that was over but evidently my uterus has a mind of it's own), and then I got in my car to realize not only am I out of diapers I'm also out of gas with no time to stop at the store AND gas station without being late. Luckily I work with lots of girls with kids around mine, so I stole a diaper off one of them to last the day lol.

I absolutely HATE running late. I am an early bird, always to things at least 10 min early, so it really throws me off when things like that happen.

I'm not as tired today, but I still feel like I'm going to fall asleep super early. I have started menu planning, and that really has helped with not coming home and eating something out of the freezer which I also hate. I am on an organizing rampage, and I love knowing what I'm going to make the whole week. really helps that I got one of those desk sized calendars and hung it on my fridge so I can go to it and write our work schedules, appts, and what's for dinner everyday and I have it there to look for what I need that night grocery wise.


That said I feel like me staying awake is not happening. I will leave you with a funny thing I heard today :)
I was in Target going to the bathroom before I ran in to get diapers (AFTER work lol) and I can't see out the door but from what I heard from my stall there was a mom with a little girl probably like 3 or 4. The mom was in the stall, and the girl was waiting right outside by the sinks. She's talking to her mom counting the sinks, and the next thing I hear is " Mom are you done going potty?" "Yes sweetie I'm done" "Mom did you get off the toilet yet?" "Yes, I did" "Okay good. I know you said you had to poop, but that took a long while!"

I love when my little one embarrasses me like that in public places and I can't cover it up and act like she's crazy or just babbling. Oh the joys of motherhood ;

Back to work we go..

Well today was my first day back to work since I popped out my new itty bitty, and I think I did quite well. I feel like I may have qualified to be called super mom in fact (which doesn't take a lot in my book honestly, sometimes I think very highly of myself for staying awake all day with no nap).

I got up and made meatloaf so I could just have my hubbs stick it in the oven tonight (it was his day off, otherwise this plan never would have worked). Then I worked a full day and managed to not fall over.

It may not seem like much to some, but I feel like it was a great accomplishment to make it through the day :)

That being said, it was really great to be back to work. I'm one of those crazy people that actually want to go to work, not only because I really enjoy it, but I also really NEED some adult interaction. It was nice to see all the members (I work front desk at a gym) that had basically seen me every day through my pregnancy, besides the rare day I got off from work. I always feel so awkward when I tell people I just had a baby a month ago, because most people make a giant deal out of it.
So I'll just be up front with you - I am tiny. I am a little, skinny person, even when I'm pregnant. So naturally my body stays that way after the baby, itty bitty and tiny. I am the girl that other girls who've had babies and not bounced back hate, which is half the people I meet (which is always awesome). I always have to wait and listen to everyone say "Your kidding. OMG your so tiny!" Okay thanks for the compliment, but it makes me feel EXTREMELY awkward because what am I supposed to say back? "Yeah, thanks, I know."?

I've gotten better though, I explain to people that I work at a gym and exercise, and eat super healthy. Doesn't stop my face from turning extremely red anytime this happens though. I know I know, you are probably thinking "UGH, Listen to this girl complain about people saying she looks good".... Sorry, skinny bitches have problems too.

On another note, I would like to inform anyone reading that I watched The Rise of the Planet of the Apes tonight and it was really amazing. I normally wouldn't be that interested, and I wasn't when my husband rented it. But this movie is awesome. I was glued to the TV the entire movie. So- Make SURE you rent this or get it when it comes out on DVD.
 
I'll end the night with something to make you laugh that my darling little 2 year old said :
My husband was annoyed because she was being whiney and wouldn't pick up her toys, and so he told her if you don't pick them up I'm throwing them away. So me, being the logical calm one said "why do you say things like that? We're not going to throw them away and she doesn't know your not serious. Your just going to piss her off more." and that's how I taught my daughter how to say "No piss me off more daddy! NO!"
:] Goodnight

2012 where have you been all my life?

As you can see, I've decided to jump on the blog craze band wagon. I originally wanted to start one of those "funny sh** my kids said" blogs, but then I opted to go full mom blog status. I feel like I have so many sarcastic things to say about so many things that the world needed me to just go all out. I'm not sure how amazing my blogs will be after a full day at work then coming home and playing mommy and wife, but I'm sure I'll be able to come up with something every day. Just don't be harsh, I'm a newbie!

So I've decided that 2012 is my big year. I was always someone who thought resolutions were stupid to do for New Years because I feel if you want something just DO it. Why wait for the first day of January to make it happen?? But this year I have a few things I want to get done, and my little list just keeps growing!
Eh, everyone is a hypocrite sometimes I guess. So my fabulous resolution list is as follows :

- Get the entire house organized!
- Start Menu planning and actually follow through with it
- Refrain from bickering with my husband so much (this one may be hard)
- Pay off all our debt
- Start saving for a house
- Be happy!!

Simple enough, right? Hopefully it lasts!
But that's what I say about a lot of things, I want, I hope, I've been meaning to.... See, I am a huge procrastinator when it comes to cleaning and things of the sort. I will go do 4 loads of dishes before I go through a closet. It's just overwhelming to me where so much "stuff" goes. I put quotations around "stuff" in the hopes you would understand that I imply it's not important stuff, I am just not really sure about the rules for swearing on blogs. It's really a bunch of sh**. But it's the kind that my husband would throw a man fit about me throwing away, or it's just stuff that's seasonal that rarely gets used. Sigh, if only I had a garage... Or just one more closet for storage I would be happy. We're making do with our confined amount of space, but the saving up for a house resolution is def getting done this year!
My goodness I just realized how late it is! Blogging makes time go fast, sheesh.
Eeek I have to sleep!